Our emotions are a clear communication of Spirit talking to our conscious mind. Unfortunately, our Western culture has taught us to deny our emotions or to ignore them all together. This even happens with people, like me, who are very aware of the role of emotions in creating our reality. Sometimes, though, our cultural preferences sneak in and we end up with a blind spot.
A few days now I have felt somewhat bored. This isn’t an energy I normally engage and I am usually very active in many areas. Recently, however, I noticed a continuing dropping of energy in my surroundings and a clear stillness approaching. This can mean one of two things: I am blocking or I am ending a stage and starting a new one. So, I attempted to expand into new areas, but the stillness remained. In order to achieve wealth, one should always be in a natural flow, which can start from stillness to final physical action and creation, but one doesn’t want to end up spending too much time being lethargic and stalled either.
Instinctively, I knew that I was procrastinating on doing some mandala work, but the reason for it remained unclear. It wasn’t the lack of time. It wasn’t the lack of desire to create. It wasn’t the lack of money. It was just that logically, I don’t know why I want to devote time to making a mandala when I could be making money writing. How does the act of doing something I don’t really want to do encourage the creation of abundance? It doesn’t! What does encourage abundance is fun, acceptance, and a passion for your art. I just didn’t have it with the mandala. That’s when someone suggested that I just start with gratitude. I am grateful to have the opportunity to do a mandala. I even turned it into a fun event and had a mandala-drawing session with my daughter. They were really beautiful and inspiring. I felt the energy start to flow as I left my resistance behind and connected with a state of being that says: Yes! I attract beauty and love. I am beauty and love!
I realize now that when my energy stops, it is when I am in a state of unconscious resistance to the urgings of Spirit. I don’t know I am resisting, otherwise it would be conscious. Doing work like mantras and mandalas are a way to reconnect to Spirit, but it only works when you are in the proper state of mind – gratitude. If you don’t want to do it, then don’t force yourself. Instead, focus on making it fun and making it something that makes you happy and grateful to be alive. Then, your spirit wealth will flow again.